When my 40 year old husband Collin died after an 18 month battle with leukemia, I was lost and broken. Feelings of intense sadness, anguish, and despair consumed me. I was empty and lonely, and the one person that I wanted to talk to, who I needed to talk to, was gone. This triggered anger, guilt, and confusion on how to move forward in my life. I felt isolated and detached from others because no one could relate to what I was feeling. This social disconnection worsened my pain. Everyone told me I was so strong, but I didn’t feel strong, I felt broken and I longed and mourned for my old life. I was drowning in emotional and physical pain, I couldn’t eat, sleep, or focus on daily tasks or make simple decisions. I struggled to be there for myself; let alone our four children who were also confused and grieving. I had lost my identity, and I didn’t recognize who I was anymore. But I knew I couldn’t let my children lose both parents, I was determined to RISE and thrive.

I realized that I wouldn’t be able to face the grief alone, so I reached out to others. I sought help from professionals, family, and friends. I read and researched everything I could find on the subject of grieving. I focused on my spiritual journey and made self-care a priority. I also chose to share my journey of healing with others. I received thousands of messages from others who felt stuck in their grief and also desired emotional healing and personal growth.

I know it is my calling to share my story and help others who are suffering from grief transform their life while reclaiming their joy. I can now look at the life I shared with my husband and view it through lenses of gratitude and love, which is something that I will forever be grateful for.

Kelci Jager is a Certified Life Coach, Grief Coach, and Registered Nurse. Her professional experience combined with personal experience as a widow and solo parent gives her a strong foundation and unique perspective. Kelci is passionate about providing support and guiding others on their grief journey.