Music is my life. It hasn’t always been what I’ve done, but its always been the backbone of my experiences. I hear a song, and I don’t just hear the song, I feel where I was, the time it reminds me of and the memories that it brings. Life makes little sense to me without music. It has been something that is constant in a world filled with change.
I have been day dreaming about my own involvement in music since I was a child. It was something that I was always attracted to, but nothing I ever thought I had within me. I used to think that I knew who I was. I told myself many things about who I was and I believed them. One of those things was that I didn’t have any musical talent and it would always be a dream.
In 2010, I sought help for my drug addiction. When my mind cleared I began challenging the many things that I was convinced about myself. I bought a guitar and taught myself the basics. I thought why not try some singing lessons. Next thing I knew I was in a studio recording songs that I had written. Watching my music come to life has been the most satisfying thing I have ever experienced.
That’s what music is for me. Its my way of showing myself that I can be anything that I want. It’s shown me that if I let go of what I believe about myself, that I might just be something more. With music I’m outside myself and it makes me believe that anything is possible. It is my outlet of expression, freedom and authenticity.