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(instrumental music plays) Welcome to Awakening Matters with your host, Cynthia Sloan. I am just sending out so much love and light, and I say that in energy form, at the place where we're all connected, and even where the mind might not agree. What I love about energy is that it doesn't need the mind to agree because it knows itself. And so, it is guided in a very love-filled and light-filled way. And so, I say that because the world right now, uh, personally, meaning for you personally in your own world, as you witness what's going on in the external world, there may be, uh, a tremendous amount of triggering going on, triggering the mental/emotional body to engage in fear, to engage in chaos, and to really engage in doubt. And I'm gonna share some of my experiences that I have lived, and it can honor in the living of it that I know they- they are true for me. And as always, never replace your own truth, only if it resonates.

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But I say to you this, that I have had many experiences in my life, and ... as we all have. And those experiences have been filled with goodness, and also filled with a lack of goodness. But one, one presence has been throughout all of the experiences without question, um, and has not been diminished in any way. But actually, if it was a good thing, then the energy and the presence celebrated with me. And if it was not a good thing, then the energy and the presence sustained me. What does that mean? It means I felt hope, I felt strength, maybe even trust, in the moments where, um, doubt were looming. And when I say I felt hope, tru- and trust, and strength, did I, do I mean that I felt it externally, that I was focused on something outside myself to bring me that? No, I felt a presence within me so much bigger and stronger than any doubt, or any information for that matter, that could be offering me reason to doubt.

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And I say this to you because sometimes doubt doesn't go away with facts. Sometimes doubt is transmuted or cleared or over-, um, I'll say overpowered by feeling, a feeling that is beyond words. And so, that presence is what I'm gonna share with you today, that has been in my life, and primarily a focus of my heart, and my work, and my soul, whether spoken or unspoken, has been present with wisdom, knowledge, healing, and miraculous experiences that I had myself with, and a part of, this presence. And so, I wanna back up a little bit and talk about how, um, I have been ... well, let me put it this way. I was in one of the rooms in my home, and I was praying. Praying, contemplating, focusing. I have a list of clients, so long, and whatever their issue is, I focus. You can call it prayer, you can call it intention, you can call it focused love.

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But I go through each name and focus on the outcome that they desire, and I focus on it, and with their sole permission, by calling upon the highest and purest, uh, presence within me to meet that outcome that they desire, which would give them the hope, the healing, and the insight that they're looking for. And so, in my life, I have been visited by many beings, those who have passed on, whether they are two-legged, four-legged, I have been visited. I have connected beings with their loved ones on the other side. I have been able to witness, through tears-... in the witnessing of it, closure between a mother and their daughter, a father and his son. And I was able to assist in that dialogue for closure to happen, for peace to prevail in the heart center of both those beings. And I was always taken to my knees in gratitude for being a part of that experience. And so I had an experience of my own, many, and the experience was in my...

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one of my rooms and, and looking at the list and closing my eyes and focusing upon it, when all of a sudden my eyes were open. So see me sitting on a chair in a room, and the room just had a, um, lamp light on. And I'm looking at... um, eyes are closed, and then all of a sudden I feel, uh, a, a presence and I open my eyes and I'm looking down at my feet for a moment, and what I'm noticing is the light in the room is expanding. It's getting brighter and brighter and brighter, and there's so much light in the room. It's as though the sun itself had left its appointed location and entered my room. That's how much light and warmth was in my room. And I immediately went down to my knees in awe of just that light and that warmth, just in awe. It just... I put my hand on my heart, and I remember breathing it in and taking it all in.

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And then, right in front of me, um, an outline started appearing as though somebody was stepping out of that sunlight, stepping out from just light into literally a physical form, and stepped out into... the outline completed itself and this being stepped out forth towards me. And again, I'm on my knees and I'm looking up, and at this point, and I'm gonna try not to cry (laughs) , but at this point, tears are just flowing like a waterfall after the s- strongest amount of rain. So tears are flowing so strong, and this being steps forth and looks at me, stretches out his hand and says, "Give to me every chapter of your life that caused you pain, suffering, fear, and doubt, one chapter at a time. Give it to me." Oh, I'm gonna cry. (laughs) How could you not? How could you not? And so there I am, on my knees, looking up at this being who literally was known as, and the presence of, very familiar to me, Jesus.

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And saying, "Give to me every chapter of your life, in essence, that has caused you all suffering, one chapter at a time." Well, I'm now crying so hard, and, and my mind is... I bypass the mind. My heart center has exploded into more light, and my mind is racing through the chapters and the files of my life, handing one after another. So I started at birth, and the energy from this being was... is so loving, unconditionally loving, strong, light-filled. There is no need for hope in the presence of this being, because the wisdom that this being holds is greater than any hope that is needed. And so all time stopped. Everything that ever was in my life prior and after this exchange, it... there was no time. So one chapter after another was handed to this being, and this being's eyes and energy, bigger than life, yet gentler and stronger than any doubt could bring about. And so I say this to you because I have had a presence with me since I was in the embryo, and I handed...

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by the way, let's go back. I handed everything up until my age now, so from birth till now, and I am 58. And so I handed everything that was asked of me to hand over, and then the hand reached towards me, and he said, "Now the work begins. Now the love transcends, transmutes, and heals you and all whom you touch." And so again, I felt a tingling sensation moving up and down my spine and around my body. Literally the hairs on my body, on my head, and all over my body were standing up, and I felt..... so many things all at once. I felt a gratitude beyond words. I felt love beyond words. I felt honored. I felt that this presence that has been with me since the day I was born was now revealed to me in so many different ways. And, um, and so I say to you, whether your journey in your life right now is about difficulty, is it about struggle, is it about fear, is it about doubt, and absolutely is it about hope, I think all of humanity is in a consciousness of hope.

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I say to you that what if the very thing that you hope for is that there is an inner power, an inner clarity, an inner truth, an inner love, whatever you want to call it by the way, if it brings you a sense of peace, if it brings you a sense of trust, if it empowers you, that that dwells within you. That dwells within you. I immediately heard right after that, th- there was a long conversation that I won't go into that, that I'll go into next time, but that occurred, but, but what I did hear with, uh, clarity, and that I can definitely share, is that I have been with you prior to your first breath. And I've been with you at every difficulty and every freedom from that. And I was really taking it in. One of the things that was i- I was informed of was that ... And I'm gonna put it as an example. If you have the ability at any time to think on, is it a baby, when you look into a baby's eyes, do you feel a sense of peace or you feel a sense of possibility?

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Is it the eyes of your loved one? Is it the eyes of an animal? Is it a, a, a horse? Is it a, a dog? Is it a puppy? Whatever it is that comes to you with pure intention, with possibility that is endless, with light that is bright, and joy that is a higher love, and I mean the higher love that we seek. Let me put this in a question. Could it be possible that the unconditional love we look for in others exists within ourselves? Could it be possible that the unconditional love we look for in others to receive from them is familiar in what we desire, because that's where we come from? Could it also be possible that that which we desire outside of us exists within us? I invite you to contemplate that within you is a cellular structure of great love. It is a love that is never-ending, and a love that is not only supportive of you, but is there to celebrate your highs and to guide you through your lows.

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So, what if a home was made for you and everything you needed available in that home was for you? You had to treat it well, you had to keep it clean, you had to learn how it worked, and that that home was your originating body, that everything you seek outside you, as far as your emotional sense of clarity, wholeness, higher power, um, illuminated sense of guidance, of feeling a part of, not something else, but a part of the you that is expanded and, and moves in a universal way, that you have access to that within you, that what you seek in relationship with others is what already dwells within you. oftentimes, when we get into relationships with others and we are seeking for them to complete us, heal us, see us, hear us, um, be there for us, et cetera, I mean, yes, there are versions of that, but the whole point is, you are wanting to go home within you, and the presence of that home is built within you. It is built within you.

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And so I say to you that there's, within you, you can call it higher power, you can call it love, you can call it Jesus, you can call it divinity, you can call it empowerment, call it whatever, whatever. Call yourself by name, call whatever resonates with you. But what I know from a lifetime of work, not only with others but myself...... is that the difference between where you are and where you want to be requires you to understand that if you act on this belief that you are carried, supported, that you are provided for, that your path is illuminated, that you are guided, if you act on it, if you trust it, if you breathe life into it, you embody the emerging old language of truth, meaning old within you. Old, not outdated, no longer applies. Old meaning wisdom coming forth to meet you at your place of angst, fear, anxiety, uncomfortability. To restore within you a s- the sacred text that you are.

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So what I'm about to say is, you are the walking, living, breathing sacred language within you. You are a sacred language. And that sacred language is always speaking with you. On this show, I'm sure whoever has tuned in has heard me talk endlessly about cellular language. That sacred text exists in your cellular language. How do I know that? Healing on many different levels myself, first, and then watching that sacred language literally communicate from a healthy cell to a cancerous cell, and to inform the cancer cell, literally communicate with it, and inform the cancerous cell that the dist- the distortion it's holding is that it has forgotten who it is. How many of us, in our humanity, find that we lose our way when we forget who we are? How many of us lose our way when we forget and start to seek elsewhere our worthiness or our permission for being?

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And so I say to you that, have friends and enjoy family, but understand that within you, you are what you have been speaking for in others. And I'm not saying, "Okay, great. I'm going to go off and live by myself and never interact with anybody because I'm everything I need." No, we are here in this humanity for a reason, and I believe a higher purpose. We are here to reach out to one another. We are here to remind one another that we have what it takes to help one another. And I have said endlessly, almost in every show, and I do believe this, that we are all a walking, living prayer. We are all a walking, living prayer to ourselves and each other. And that that is constant, and it's outside of time. You're a walking, living prayer in body and out of body. I deal with a lot of clients who have lost their loved ones, and when their loved ones are on the other side, guess what? They're still a living prayer. But that's a whole other topic.

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And so here I am, standing in front of this sacred being, and what does this sacred being ask of me? What does this sacred being ask of me? Remind, and I'm putting it in my words, remind humanity of its worthiness. Not to have power over others, but power within to awaken in each other the inner power of clarity, of choice, of the ability to move mountains, of the ability to part seas. And yes, I'm going there. The ability to vibrationally alter the outcome when you remember that that which you desire and you start acting as if it's already happened, you start literally from the mind of spirit, Jesus, love, whatever resonates with you. You start utilizing the fact that you are a projection screen, but that the movie plays within you first and then you project it onto this dimension. You project onto this dimension the outcome of your choice, and then you say yes to it. I guarantee you. Why do I mi- why am I saying, "I guarantee you"? Because I've lived it. I guarantee you.

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You start using your wisdom, your knowledge, or even taking my word for it. You are not only worthy, but you are here, and you are so incredibly loved, beyond your understanding of the word love. That if you could take that in for a moment and contemplate, "Wait a second. I'm being told that I am so incredibly loved, and that it's unconditional, and that if I create a per- self-permission to claim and choose what I want, and then project that outcome onto this dimension, that then I will see that as..." And that's one way of many. But to ask and receive is another way. And so the, uh, it was very much a dialogue with this sacred, sacred being that said to me, "I've been with you prior to birth and will never leave you." So this formula started with nature before humanity witnessed it. Now, we are talking about the need for humanity to...... witness itself. So witness yourself as a part of, witness yourself as a part of... Sorry, we're having technical difficulties.

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Going back to this, so part of this dialogue with this, I'm gonna... It's... Part of this dialogue with Jesus was, "I did not make you from fragments. You were not made from fragments. You were made from my blood and bone and you are whole, you are complete. You were created from wholeness. Stop living as though you need permission from another to be seen, to be heard, to be loved, to receive, to create, to reach out, to create a bridge. Become that. Remember that. You are not created in fragments, you are created in wholeness, and you are the most beautiful image there is to be seen." And I can tell and feel that many, many in their human form would question their permission to feel worthy, and I say to you, I understand. I understand. And by no means whatsoever am I saying, I am better. No, I am you. You are me. I am you. You are me.

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The opportunity that we are in, in watching the chaos around us, is to become the anchored within you, the anchored embodiment of holding the outcome or balance or anchored symmetry of connection. But to become the anchor of what you desire to experience is the key. To become the anchor of your desired experience is the key, and to ask for help from Jesus, from your guides, from your angels, from your loved ones on the other side. To ask for help means I know that I have this, I know that I'm being told that I'm connected far greater than I imagined and loved beyond comprehension, that I am loved beyond time and space, that I am love. I'm being told that I am, and I'm telling you this, that I am, meaning I'm telling you that you are a gift to the world. You are a gift unto yourself, and you have the opportunity to heal. You have the opportunity to experience the outcome of your choice and to affect the outcome of the... Of...

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By gathering with like-minded individuals and becoming the embodiment, not of how to get there, but visualizing the end result, that you become the projection screen and you project that onto this physical dimension by embodying that which you desire, that which you desire. And I am gonna say to you, at this point in time, if you are alive at this timeframe in this world, it is because you have, on a soul level, accepted that your divinity, your body reflects your higher love. Make that your own. Make that your own. But most importantly, allow higher love, which means unconditional love, your higher power, your, um... And I'm not saying to follow anyone. I'm saying that within you is a divinity that you were born with. Within you is a wisdom that you were born with. Within you, there is a love that goes far beyond this life that you were born with.

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Within you resides beings and access to beings who walk the earth and change the literal makeup of the earth, that you have access to them and they speak to you and through you, whether you are knowing of it or not, that the disconnect is not there, the connection is there. And that you are connected is not a matter of whether you are told by another that you are or that you are not. You are connected to a higher power and you are connected to a opportunity to awaken within your own life to create healing, love, light, an expression of your choice. And you were born this way So prior to your arrival even, there was a clarity of you on a soul level that was saying, "Yes, yes, yes, I agree. And yes, thank you." And so then you get here. And I am one to speak about this, because when I got here, upon birth, the problems started.

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So I mean to say to you that if you are listening or you know somebody that is struggling and they're not listening, may you, if it resonates, be a messenger to them, that the hardest and most... devastating life can still rise up, and even because of the devastation, go higher and higher and meet those who have told themselves, "I am not worthy because look at my life." And then later on, at, towards the latter part of the life, all of a sudden, be met with not only are you worthy, but it's this chapter of your life that is going to touch, reach far beyond the physicality those who need to be reached. And you will feel and understand those in pain because you have been there. You will feel and understand those who have fear and struggle and stress and love withheld from them, and torture, and, and, and, and. Because you have been there, I will be there with you. Because we were not meant to come here and destroy each other, we were meant to come here and lift each other up.

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Lift each other up to a higher form of interaction, to a higher form mentally, emotionally, physically, creatively, expressively, spiritually. And so I say to you, through many, many struggles, 58 years of struggling, there, I can speak from experience. I'm not just saying something that sounds dreamy or good or hopeful or maybe to some doubtful. So be it. I'm asking, what if you were loved and you felt loved unconditionally? What if your dreams of creative expression were supported? What if you felt like the sky's the limit and there's nothing you couldn't do? What if fear in your inner body and mind, gone all of a sudden? Not gone and left empty, but replaced with a feeling of peace. Not because you're walking around without clarity and hoping things will be okay, but replaced with a peace and knowing. And the part that is knowing, you don't even need to know. I'm talking about myself now. I don't even need to know why all the fear is gone and there is so much peace.

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The knowing goes far beyond words and i- reaching deeper than any experience can inform you about. I am here to tell you today that you are looking for... Wait. Let me back up a little bit and say movies where people are forgiven, salvation from those who have created atrocities and they are forgiven, um, and so on and so forth. These movies that people watch that bring them to tears is not because you're watching it and you're going, "Oh, yeah, I remember being in jail." No. You're brought to tears because there is an aspect of you, whether known or unknown, that wants to be forgiven, that wants to be received, that wants to be held, that wants to be loved, that wants to be told, "You are worthy," and you are. You are worthy beyond your physical life. You are worthy beyond what your mental body tells you.

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You are worthy and you are loved unconditionally to a degree and in a way that surpasses all the reasons you can give yourself that tell you you're not enough, it's not enough, and you're not gonna make it. You're gonna make it, but it's up to you. What do I mean? It's up to you because you can close the door and lock it and, and whoever you want can walk through that door, and you can still choose to be blind to who's in there. So when I say it's up to you, it's up to you if you open that door. It's up to you if you open your eyes. And when you open that door and you open your eyes, may you be looking upon yourself and may you reach out towards your higher self and say, "I accept. I accept that I am worthy, that I am loving, that I will reach my highest dreams and then some." That you will understand there is a reason that I still am here right now. And with everything going on in the world, what do I want to represent?

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I want to represent in the world what is possible, but I'm s- not saying to you, I ... There are many people and none of them are wrong. I am just talking about my perception and you make it your own, throw it out, and go on to the next if it doesn't resonate. But there are many people who say, "I cannot be at peace if there is war." I understand. And I'm not talking about turn the other cheek and ignore. I absolutely agree. Don't be at peace in spite of the war, as an example only. Become the peace that you seek the world to mirror back to you. Become the embodiment of love that you seek the world to mirror back to you. Become the embodiment of healing that you seek the world to mirror back to you. Become the light and the awakening within you. Carry it, walk it. Don't say a word. Simply walk as though you are carrying that with you. How do you do that? How do you do that? What am I talking about?

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I'm talking about make a list of what you want in your life and beyond you, and then say, "I'm going to embody it and carry that energy, that frequency, that trust, that belief, that prayer, that hope, and I'm gonna receive it, and I'm gonna carry it within me as though it has, it has been done. It is already done. Let my body, mind, and spirit walk upon this earth as though that which I desire is already done and I embody it." And then share that with your friends. Share that with your loved ones. Become the embodiment of what you want to see the external world mirror back to you, because it's begging you to. It is begging you to.